The Girl who touched ME

  That day, when i abdicated, and was worrying about the future, I felt a gentle little hand touching my shoulder, from behind. With lots of surprises, i looked behind, to find a young little girl, who merely looked like an angel holding a smile of trust, wisdom, power and victory.

  I had never known her before and never did i remember of seeing her anywhere. With 'n' number of questions and a dilemma about the beautiful little girl, something forced me to speak to her. My fruity conscious forced me to speak but my 'studied-mind' refused. 

  Gaining confidence with whatever i had, I uttered a word of silence to her. She smiled, as if she understood my word of silence, which took me aback. Still knowing the spirit within her, which i felt directly through my eyes into my mind, i concluded she isn't a mistake.

  With a dwindled thought, when i was about to speak to her, she questioned, "Why do you look worried?"

  I without knowing the sense of her intelligence, tried not to abandon. I replied in anguish, "Do I look worried?" And with a gorgeous smile, as if she understood my whole life, replied "I said -You are worried!" That little phrase and the delivery of her words, took me up into her. I was staggered when i thought and felt that I was in Love with her at that moment. Recognizing myself, I understood that it was just a feeling that i wanted to share my 'burdens of life' with her. She nodded positively, as if she heard what I thought and exclaimed, "That is why am here for!"

  Shocked at what she said, I looked at her face. Again the same Gorgeous and Victorious smile. "I know you well", she remarked, "And am here, to lift you up from your worries".  Astonishingly, I asked her, "You know me?" and she nodded again. Me, without knowing the fact or incapable of sensing her wisdom, agreed her for her nods. 

  I cross-checked that I weren't dreaming. No, I wasn't. With a forceful feeling of driving consciousness which wanted me to share everything with her, I asked, "How do I trust You?" Gently touching me, she replied, "You can trust me better than Nature." having never heard such trusty words, from anyone, till now, in my life, I said, "Okay. I will share my hardy' with you, which life gave me."

  With a sense of abhorrent life, I started ...... "Life had given me just nothing. When I was a kid, I din have the love of my parents. I was an Orphan. I dint have a home. I was not guided by people who are of my DNA. I was living abjected. I never had the pleasure of kids, for what they had. I was abased by people as an Orphan. I had none to take care of me, to love me, to watch me and to feed me. Days grew and i grew ---- 

 When i was 4 y/o, if i do hardly remember, St. Louis picked me up from the Corner-Street, the street where i used to 'BEG' people for a single paise. People who had BENZ car and a DOG inside the A/C car, did not like to see me at least as a child in the Human caste. They drove me off the car shouting for making their car dirty since i touched them..." 

             [ A pause with tears in eyes (or.. eyes in tears!) filled with horror and pain with a sore throat -------------------]

  "St. Louis the lord who saved me, took me to the St. Louis Orphan for kids, where my heart throbbed to see hundreds of kids, just like me at the age of varying 4-6 without parents or guardians. 

  Parent-less kids are far better, I had thought when I saw parents who orphan their kids cos he/she is lame, paralytic, dumb etc.

  St. Louis orphan made me a human out of a beggar, I din know, if begging was into my DNA... I wouldn't have started it as a profession at the age of 3, then... 

    [Tears block my eyes....]

  The young girl touched me and said, "I am here to hear you..." That gave me some undefinable confidence. More than what a girl can give to a boy.

  Still i continued, "My love for my parents ended there. I perceived some knowledge through a Govt. run Orphan school. My life was still miserable there. I had to clean the classrooms, Wash-clean the TOILETS, sweep the ground and much more. And only a few people who did not fare well in academics were selected to do these jobs. And, i was one, among the 3 in the entire school. I still managed to study hard, but life didn't me to. St. Louis met his end of the journey of life and for the sake of Finance, the Orphan was closed.

  Kids there were taken care of another Orphanage and the selection was made according to academics. Only 2 were thrown out. Me and the other guy. Lucky him, he managed to step in another Orphanage. But ME?? 

 [A SIGH!--]

  Back to the corner-street, where i was begging before. I thought of starting back my old profession ie., begging. But my instinct stopped me. I knew by myself that i am a hard worker. Deciding to work harder, i worked as a Milk-Boy form 5 a.m to 6 a.m and as Paper-boy from 6 a.m to 7 a.m. Rs. 5/- per day. That was sufficient, since I took food, only ONCE a day. Rejoining back at the Orphan School, i studied more harder before, over my potential to play GOD. Well, i was rewarded. I was the school topper for 12th. Later, with all those Rs. 3 saved all day, I joined the MARX UNIVERSITY of SCIENCE. 

  And now, i own a Computer Accessory Company with turn over of Millions, at the age of 28. 

But still, I have a duty left. The Orphanage - St. Louis Orphanage. I need to eradicate the orphans and make everyone Love life as I do now -!

  And with this said, when I turned back, I still saw the beautiful girl with the same smile standing besides me. She was more vivid than before. She exclaimed,

            You wanted to feel ME,

      You Understood ME, as I am,

     The best results come when you work harder and harder.

    And since you wanted to speak to me,

   Am before you and people call me.... 

--- LIFE!!

said the young girl and bid me a good-bye. I still wish I had her with me. Btw, I am 60y/o now, married. Have two children, one in US as S/W Engineer, and the other as CA in Australia. .... 

My life is beautiful and it had been always, since i started working harder.

  - And yeah, I am the President of St. Louis Orphanage now....

 

    

 

Making a day Beautiful ?!

 We live for years, months, weeks, days, minutes and seconds. We still don't ever know which was the beautiful day in our life. sometimes we feel a day, which we spent with friends or family or best ones in our life, the most beautiful. But this day is overcome by some other, when we spend a day with more good people. Okay now. Not getting into the history of the beautiful day ever, lets check out on how to live a day beautifully. 

             

 Ideas, thoughts and actions decide our personality and habit. Refinement of these, possibilities of analyzing people before we interact will help one to have a good day also gets he, good relations and good people. Some of the best times of a day should really be when we see, feel, hear good feelings and persons around and when we feel that we have value, when we feel that we are heard, considered. This can not only turn up our day beautiful but, giving such an opportunity to others also gives a possibility of making their day beautiful. 

 man as he is a social animal, never can get good ideas, all of himself alone at all times. Though he thinks, his is the best, he always should remember, the ultimate is not what he thinks. Chances, when given to others may make us realize what's more in the subject. Not only that, the second person feels he has done his best and would be more motivated. Now, chances alone don't speak all time. One more factor, that is more than a petrol for a car, is Appreciation. Two little words, "Good Job" can make yours and the other subjects day more beautiful. 

 Waking up early in the morning, going to job, returning, watching TV, back to bed had been our routine. Okay, this is unchangeable. But there is something that you can change, out of all these. As soon as you wake up, take the choice of living at your best this day. Wake up early in the morning, praying god or meditating can do wonders in a day. These little things, reduces the B.P. With the prayer add up a few sentences about the earth, the life in general. Just think "Let every life be happy. Let every life be fulfilled". And thats enough for a super-day startup.  More than this, while praying, give a try on this. Maintaining silence, concentrating your inner body should make you feel wonderful. Try absorbing your breath. Do not breath forcefully for this sake. Just absorb your normal breath.. don think of anything for a few min.. If you tend to be diverted, concentrate back on breathing. This can make you feel the change.

 Now, having started a new, beautiful day, the remaining time you spend must be logical, unsophisticated and too relaxed. Remember that you are not here as to die the next moment. Enjoy everything around. Find the beautiful people or .. should i say, the beauties of people around you.. Speak to them of what they like. Hold a smile always. Never flatter. Be adaptive. Analyze the person before you comment of anything. Ask a sorry if something goes wrong. Please if you need a help and Appreciate if you like what they did. 

Having people who trust you and be good to you is the only thing that can make you feel 'happy'. I mean happy in terms of heart. Not the materialistic happiness. 

remember, true happiness is what when you feel you have got something and you don want more of it. Speaking about materialistic happiness i said before, you need more of it.. More of gadgets, more of money and whatsoever. When you get a 10 billion, you need a 20 billion. When u get that, u again need more and this is endless and you are never going to be happy with what you get. But, "Hey you have don the job perfectly!" never requires anything more. Also a hug, irrespective of position, status, discipline [Not to say, i did not mention GENDER. Be carful wen u hug ladies.. ;)] can really turn the others on. You yourself will also feel so beautiful. The happiness you feel may be just for a minute, but mark me, that is what you call true happiness.

 okay, now back in the evening.  Nothing could be more good than a family group discussion.. Its lively.. I can no way discuss/express the enormous amount of pleasure you get in such talks... 

 And the end, before u sleep, the ever best feeling in life, of the day is when you rewind the day closing your eyes. Minute by minute, hour by hour.. I bet, you will have a good time. 

Making a day beautiful is how we take the day as - False! 

True - Making the day beautiful is, how we live the day as!

Think ... let me know what u feel...

Have good days ever .. 

 

Ubuntu a Powerful Operating System ...

All fed up with windows.. 98, ME, 2000, XP, Vista and hell. Born and brought up with windows, were I. I din feel Windows boring, in spite of whatever freezes and crashes i ever faced wid Win-do(se)ws. Ignorance took over me to windows. I knew something good than Windows doesn't exists, rite frm my 8th std., the time we bought a PC. In fact, i was familiar about something called Linux, Red-Hat Linux but din want to know about it much in those young days cos i heard people saying it was all about codes.. U can't access the PC without knowing atleast a few basics of coding. Well, what else could i do, when i din have anyother option left other than the unopened curtains of Windows? Continued with it... Moreover, i still love billy very much.. for his hard-works, for his personality, his specs (i love the way he adjusts his glasses), his hairstyle etc etc. I hardly remember if i had missed any TV shows where Bill was the hero. Well, i know this would be a silly excuse for using windows ;) but i din't really wanna crash my PC, trying something new. Never, now! To say, am out of the doors or windows.. with something called Ubuntu.

Ubuntu:

Ubuntu is, as said earlier, a really powerful operating system, which is based on Linux. Advantages are heaven in Ubuntu. Right from the desktop to the backend of database management, Ubuntu can be powerfully used. More with GUI as user Interactions, one can use Ubuntu, without even knowing what a Terminal is! Btw, terminal is a note pad like thing where u can ask ubuntu to do ur desired stuff like application installing etc (apt-get install, is the code). Something similar to Run/cmd/command in Windows, but million times powerful than that. Ubuntu is a freeware, open source OS. Canonical Systems, the coders of Ubuntu has given a Public Licence to it. Look at this! You need to pay thousands of bucks for a crap, where later u would probably have to do an updation of hardware components, because the crap you got did not detect them. Whilst, you get the most powerful distro free and pay nothing else other than some time to order a CD in Ubuntu's official website. And yeah.. coming back to Linux.. there is one thing people always confuse with. (even did i :p)

Linux:

Linux, first of all, as many consider, is not an Operating System. Precisely, its just the base of the operating System, over which the original OS is built. say, to compare with Windows, Windows runs on a base called 'Kernel'. Over kernel, is built the actual OS, be it Xp or Vista or whatsoever. Similarly, Linux is the base on which OS's like Red-Hat, Ubuntu and such. The most popular GUI's used in Linux includes KDE, GNOME etc. Both uses different types of GUI and gives different interfaces and appearance. Linux is named after Linus Torvalds, the inventor of this powerful kernel. Linux is very powerful at servers and can be installed with mainframe to super computers and operates with command line processing. Well, thats actually history. The Ubuntu distro has made Linux a fruitful experience to a common man who doesn even knows the A's of coding.

Why Ubuntu?:

I use Ubuntu right now.. I ll mention a few advantages... I don wanna compare it with Windows and waste time...

1. High speed. My PC starts up within a matter of 10 seconds.

2. Highly customizable. I don find any walls as in the former. All the Windows are open wide.

3. Adding and Removing programs are never made much easier. 4. A manager which can detect all the applications in your system, do updates promptly, with which you can just install any applications ever available for Ubuntu. U don really have to go bugging websites and take pain in downloading torrents.

5. Security options. No one can use even a partition of my hard-disk without my password.

6. No Freezing points.. I ve been using ubuntu for atleast 2 months from now and i rarely or never experienced any crashes. My PC is now a good boy :p.

7. Virus free.

8. Multiple options to operate the System.. GUI or Terminal, which maybe effective sometimes.

9. No drivers necessary.

10. I got it for Free!!

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Wanna check ubuntu?? well, here u go.. http://www.ubuntu.com/

all the best.

Microsoft - back wid the next endeavor ..

Windows Vista, a highly expected OS, for its design, simplicity of user interface, support, security really buzzed off many techies, i must say... The expectations were really a short-lived one, not only to the techies, but even to those home users, who just use their system to play games, hear music and watch movies. The release had bugs wid Drivers and with many of the applications. Applications and Drivers which were designed for XP, failed to take a lump less drive over Vista. If to mention, the serious bug wid which Vista had with nVidia really pissed off many gamers. Too much of security alerts, which though useful, were felt a stupidity among common users. Bound to the walls of Microsoft, users had only used the options which Vista forced them to. Not that Vista was made for Users; Users were made for Vista. But to mention, this had been a claim of Windows right from the beginning. Vista as informed earlier, managed to get the users attention through a simple GUI. Aero, called it Microsoft. Glass schemes of windows and lighting effects made Vista look cool and always better, attracted ppl as such. Later the regression they made is well known.. But later, M$ managed to correct the bugs with the SP1 release of Vista. And now, many applications have support for Vista and driver bugs are corrected and remolded. These times, i don't think one (speaking about the end user) will have to struggle much with Vista, except for the exceptionally asked security questions, which often blows our hats off. But still there are complaints about Vista eating up really a tough space in the hard-disk and the user is unknown for what it happens. I was even stunned to know that after installing Vista and running my PC idle for a few hours, nearly 2 GB missing on my 40 GB hard-disk, whilst the installation took only 7 GB. Later i managed to tweak it up and fixed it, anyways.

The new endeavor:

After Vista, which sold at a rate, nearly two times half than that of XP, M$ is on its next project, which MS calls, Windows 7. MS claims this to be built mostly in accordance with Vista based technicalities, so the user need not to have face weird problems, as they did in Vista. Elegant, Supportive, Clean, Technically fit, Entertainment, Environmental are some keywords to Windows 7. I don think, MS will give much new as in a transition from XP to Vista. But, advancements in what Vista was supposed to have and what it failed to do, will be added up or rectified in Windows 7. But, who knows? MS is purely unpredictable. Official blog says, MS would release Windows 7 in 2010. But the release could be made even sooner, because they don ve to code from the kernel level. The OS can be an assurance for sure, to all its users with Vista of compatibility related issues. Drivers and applications which run successfully in Vista will run in ease even here.

Hope we hear something good from Microsoft corporation about the doors of Windows 7.

For more informations and follow-up's visit : http://www.microsoft.com/windows/windows-7/

Darwin's Theory of Evolution - a Crisis??

Evolution... a most frequently asked question, whose answer is still beyond the imaginative power of man. Where are we from? Whom did we come from? How did our evolution take place? Are we from monkeys? Then who created the first bacteria of the World? From where did it evolve? lotsa questions, as such.

Theists say "Its all from God.. God created the Universe, the Planet, the Atmosphere, Water, Land, Bacterias, Viruses, Animals, Plants, Human". well, good in that case. Belief is always the answer for an unknown question.

And back to Darwin's theory, Sir Darwin proposed a theory.. famously called as the 'Theory of evolution'. According to him, each and every creature on this planet, is created with a factor so called, "decent with modification". The theory says, Everything is descended from its ancestors. trees, animals, human and everything {We must have been from an amoeba then, not from monkey :p}. Also adds up, when such a transition occur, the beneficial mutations still remain as in the ancestor, but the next advancement of the gene would be radical. Say, Human, as of now, is considered to have taken his evolution from a monkey. The advancement we have is the addition of one more sense, absence of tail etc. Its just a structural advancement we have, considers the Theory of Evolution. This process of advancement, was coined by a term 'natural selection', by Darwin. Say, the theory proposes, there must have been something, which existed before the butterflies, which cannot fly but had the properties of a butterfly. Say the fore-runner is X, the butterfly should have inherited a few properties from X and should have developed the capability of flying. The X should have gradually got extinct and what exists is actually the butterfly.

But the transition can not happen in a leap. It takes lotta time. It takes place slowly and very slowly. Darwin further said, if under any discussion, it is to be proved that any organ/part of a creature existed without successive building of them, from their ancestors, the theory of Evolution would obviously break down. Such an organ, if formed, would come under 'irreducibly complex system'. The Irreducibly Complex System is something which contains many complex parts, where the entire organ fails to function properly, if any one single part of the organ fails. Say, you have a two wheeler. You wont be able to run a two wheeler, which is a complex system without tyres or engine or handlebar. You need these integral parts of the complex system to run the two wheeler good. Now, in the same case discussion, there is no chance that the System of the two wheeler can be evolved part by part. Because, if the evolution is part by part and slow, the system wouldn function well.

To note a point, Darwin himself had made a confession on his theory...
"To suppose that the eye with all its inimitable contrivances for adjusting the focus to different distances, for admitting different amounts of light, and for the correction of spherical and chromatic aberration, could have been formed by natural selection, seems, I freely confess, absurd in the highest degree."

And thus, the Darwin's theory is a crisis ... !